Wednesday, June 13, 2007

another holiday

hey as'kum pple and hi to all.
been a very boring morning for me. hais. last night i was talking to this fren on the phone. and i realised something that i never expected to realised.hmmm.good or not.maybe. i always remember that happines is ot a destination is a method of life. in life that are many ways and methods to live ur life. my lecturers always told me to livelife to the fullest. you choose the path. but sometimes we do things and most of it we do it without knowing it why. right. i dunnoe. is life all bout being happy or have full of money. money is not everything right. arghh i dunoe. life is full of obstacle. likewise ni sume like wat we islamic pple say 'dugaan allah'. at that particular statement is not being positive. its bout having faith in urself and accept things. sometimes in fact most of time life dun go as wat we plan. they often go the other way round. this holiday is a boring one for me.whenever i feel boring i just remember that someone.hmmm.strange.is that a sign or wat. i dunnoe. wat tod do. shes now with some chinese guy. wat im not happy is that my own fren stab me. and to that person just bother to make me happy lar. you are not a true friend and never will be. its like childish i know.hais. and that someone i love go for a chinese guy. and wat is that. all my life with her i tried to change. challenge her beliefs and all. i just hope that she knows wat she doing. insyallah she does. and i hope she have herself. insyallah she ingat pendirian dier. hmm.amin. i dun want to see the day where suddenly she turn into something malay girls dun do.i jsut wich so. i really hope. you know many malay girls community not oly say girls lar even boys. im just ashame of that. dunnoe why they are trying to be someone they are not. it it actuall affects the rest of the malay community. come on pple. hais i just wish that shes okay and she remembers all the sense that i put into her.

'ya allah berikanlah pertunjuk untuk kwn ku yg tersyg. tunjukkan dier jln yg lurus. apunkan lar segala dosa2nye. kuatkanlah iman dan ibadahnye ya allah. amin'

this is at least wat i can do for her right.pray for her every night.yeah. aahh...to many pple it sounds pretty lame. and no im not that pious lar. ahha..i know wat im doing. i just dun understand life sometimes.